tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31036498.post2243394225450556713..comments2023-10-10T11:21:28.151-04:00Comments on A Look in the Mind and Heart of a Stay At Home Mom: Assaulted...Traumatized...Birth RapeHorsey Mamahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05344244843958314032noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31036498.post-51356049779091420742008-11-24T22:27:00.000-05:002008-11-24T22:27:00.000-05:00I'm so sorry you are going thru this Genna. {{Hugs...I'm so sorry you are going thru this Genna. {{Hugs}} <BR/><BR/>Email me, I'd love to know who the d**khead is! I kinda wonder if it was my OBGYN. He sucked!Karlisehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17109391615835747279noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31036498.post-87371951709176685642008-11-24T17:03:00.000-05:002008-11-24T17:03:00.000-05:00I just wanted to say you are not alone. I too had ...I just wanted to say you are not alone. I too had a horrible birth experience and am still struggling with it. My little boy is now 17 months old and a PURE JOY!! But I still feel anger every time I see a pregnant woman and wonder if she will get to have the experience I wanted. <BR/><BR/>Here's my mini-story:<BR/>I had the rare/odd reaction to the drugs given. I was only supposed to be numb from the chest down, but the drugs went all the way up to my brain. I couldn't move my arms, couldn't talk, and my brain was telling me I couldn't breathe (even though I actually was). I had hallucinations and was REALLY scared. I thought "this is it, I'm going to die." The doctors finally figured out something was wrong and put me under. A few complications during surgery happened and I lost so much blood they were going to do a blood transfusion, but didn't have to. I woke up in the ICU in a lot of pain. My son had to be put in an oxygen dome for a little while. And after about a day I finally got to hold him. Because of the complications during delivery they pumped so much fluid into me, that my legs were about 5x their normal size. And they really hurt. And I'm not exaggerating. After about a week at home I noticed my stomach was red, went to the ER and had an infection. Had to be put on antibiotics via an IV, makes it hard to breastfeed with so many freaking tubes coming out. Had to spend another week at the hospital (oh joy!).<BR/><BR/>Anyways..... I just wanted to let you know that I too feel robbed from the wonderful experience of hearing your child's first cry and wonder if and when I decide to have another one, if I can handle another disappointing birth experience. And I totally understand the whole "your child is healthy, get over it" line making you want to scream. I did buy the book "Rebounding from Childbirth: Toward Emotional Recovery" by Lynn Madsen and it has helped me some. Just know you are not alone. Sending love and prayers... AmyBrenden's Mommyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14551197387395254177noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31036498.post-7144662114355288902008-11-24T14:28:00.000-05:002008-11-24T14:28:00.000-05:00I know how you feel.HUGS to you!!I know how you feel.<BR/><BR/>HUGS to you!!Jen S.https://www.blogger.com/profile/00822858943717578130noreply@blogger.com